Chapter 6 - Letters He Never Sent His Wife

Denise had placed the box on her dining-room table as though it might explode.
Kiara sat several feet away.
Her face looked exhausted.
Tasha entered carrying the burgundy ribbon bundle from her own house.
The symbolism was almost unbearable.
Two collections.
Two women.
One man.
Denise tapped the box.
“How long?”
Kiara stared at her hands.
“A year before he got out.”
“That’s not what I asked.”
Kiara took a breath.
“Fourteen months before.”
Tasha closed her eyes briefly.
Fourteen months.
Not eleven.
Not an occasional message.
More than a year.
Denise pulled one envelope out.
Federal correctional return address.
The envelope was addressed to a post office box.
“You rented a P.O. box?”
Kiara nodded.
“Marcus said sending letters to the house would cause problems.”
Tasha laughed quietly.
“He was right.”
Kiara looked sick.
“Aunt Tasha, I know there’s nothing I can say.”
“There are things you can say. Start with facts.”
Kiara swallowed.
“The first messages were about his release.”
“Why you?”
“You were working all the time. He said he needed help researching business filings. I had bookkeeping experience.”
Tasha worked as director of operations for a rehabilitation hospital. During Marcus’s final year in custody, she regularly worked fifty-hour weeks while preparing for his return.
She remembered asking Kiara to help with small tasks.
“Did I connect you two?”
Kiara’s tears returned.
“Yes.”
That hurt differently.
Tasha had opened the door herself.
Not knowingly.
But still.
“I asked you to help your uncle.”
Kiara nodded.
“He started messaging me through the prison system. At first everything was normal. Business names. Licensing. Insurance.”
“When did it change?”
“Maybe two months later.”
“How?”
Kiara stared at the box.
“He started asking about me.”
Denise snapped, “He’s known you since you were a teenager.”
Kiara flinched.
“Mom, I know.”
Tasha raised a hand.
“Let her talk.”
Kiara continued.
“He asked why I wasn’t dating. I told him about Darius breaking up with me. Marcus said I deserved better. Then he started calling.”
“From prison?”
“Yes.”
“Approved calls?”
“At first.”
“At first?”
Kiara hesitated.
“Then sometimes from numbers I didn’t recognize.”
Tasha looked at Vanessa, who had accompanied her.
Vanessa frowned.
“Contraband phone?”
Kiara nodded.
Marcus had never told Tasha he possessed one.
That could have resulted in serious disciplinary consequences.
“How often?”
“Sometimes once a week. Sometimes more.”
Denise stood abruptly.
“You were secretly talking to my sister’s husband from prison?”
“I know what I did.”
“No, you know what happened. I’m asking whether you know what you did.”
Kiara began crying.
Tasha felt no satisfaction.
“Denise.”
Her sister paced away.
Kiara opened the box herself.
“I kept them because I kept telling myself I would end it.”
She handed one letter to Tasha.
Tasha recognized Marcus’s handwriting.
K, you’re the only person I can talk to without feeling like somebody’s prisoner or somebody’s project.
Tasha stopped.
Somebody’s project.
Her.
She read farther.
Tasha loves me, but sometimes love can make a man feel like a debt. Every visit reminds me what I owe. With you I can just be Marcus.
Tasha lowered the page.
Kiara whispered, “I should have stopped.”
“Yes.”
“He made me feel like you and him were already over emotionally.”
“Did he tell you that?”
“He said you were loyal because loyalty was part of your identity. He said you needed him to need you.”
The cruelty was sophisticated.
Not rage.
Not insults.
Marcus had converted Tasha’s strongest quality into pathology.
“What did you believe?”
Kiara looked at her.
“Too much.”
“That’s not an answer.”
Kiara took a long breath.
“I believed he loved me.”
Denise muttered something under her breath.
Tasha ignored it.
“Do you still?”
Kiara’s silence was answer enough.
Tasha sat down.
There it was.
This was not simply an affair.
Kiara had built an emotional world around Marcus.
Perhaps Marcus had too.
That did not excuse either of them.
But it made the ruins more complicated.
“Did he promise to leave me?”
“Yes.”
“When?”
“After the company became stable.”
Tasha laughed once.
“Of course.”
Kiara slid another letter forward.
“He said he couldn’t leave immediately because you controlled the house and finances.”
“I controlled them because he was incarcerated.”
“I understand that now.”
“You understood it then.”
Kiara looked ashamed.
“Yes.”
Tasha opened another letter.
This one was dated nine months before Marcus’s release.
Once she gets the line set up, I can breathe. Then we decide what we actually want.
Tasha looked up.
“What line?”
Kiara whispered, “Credit.”
The HELOC had not existed yet.
Marcus was discussing it nine months before his release.
“Did he already plan to borrow against my house?”
“Yes.”
Tasha’s mouth went dry.
“He told me the idea came from a business banker after he got home.”
Kiara shook her head.
“He talked about it before.”
Denise sank into a chair.
Vanessa asked, “Did Marcus tell you what the money would be used for?”
“Equipment. Marketing. Payroll.”
“Anything else?”
Kiara nodded slowly.
“He said some money needed to be moved somewhere Tasha couldn’t touch during a divorce.”
Tasha stopped breathing.
“During a what?”
Kiara looked at her.
“A divorce.”
Tasha stood.
“When were you planning to tell me?”
“I wasn’t part of that plan.”
“Your company received the money.”
“I know.”
“You were sleeping with him.”
“Not then.”
Tasha paused.
That distinction mattered to Kiara.
“When did it become physical?”
“Three weeks after he came home.”
Tasha nodded.
“And the plan to hide money?”
“Before.”
Vanessa leaned forward.
“So the financial arrangement predates the physical affair.”
“Yes.”
Tasha stared at Marcus’s letters.
This changed everything.
Marcus could no longer claim he made reckless decisions after release.
The financial scheme had been discussed while Tasha was still sitting in prison visiting rooms telling him she could not wait to build a life together.
Denise opened another envelope.
A small photograph fell onto the table.
Not a romantic picture.
A photograph of Tasha’s house.
Taken from across the street.
On the back, Marcus had written:
One day this will fund the life we should have had.
Tasha recognized the photograph.
She had mailed it to Marcus herself after buying the property.
She had written on the front:
Our home is waiting for you.
Marcus had taken the photograph of her promise and mailed it to Kiara as a picture of money.
Tasha pressed her hand to her mouth.
Then Vanessa picked up the envelope.
“There’s no prison inspection stamp.”
Tasha looked at her.
“What does that mean?”
Vanessa turned it over.
“Either procedures were different, or Marcus didn’t mail this from the prison.”
Kiara froze.
Denise noticed.
“Kiara?”
Kiara closed her eyes.
“He didn’t.”
Tasha stared at her.
“Then who did?”
May you like
Kiara whispered, “Someone who visited him.”
And suddenly there was another person inside the secret.